...the journaling is in Dutch...I'll try to translate it....
" I'm afraid....afraid for Wednesday...then my mom have to go to the hospital for the result of the CT-scan... I'm afraid...afraid that we get bad news again... I know that she can't win this fight/disease, but I hope so that the tumors didn't grow further, so that she's having more time with us... I still want to do so many things together with her, want to ask her so much more questions.... but for how long?"
"Ik ben bang...bang voor woensdag....dan krijgt mam de uitslag van de CT-scan....Ik ben bang...bang dat het opnieuw slecht nieuws is...Ik weet dat ze niet meer beter wordt, maar ik hoop zo dat de tumoren niet verder zijn gegroeid, zodat ze nog langer bij ons kan blijven...Ik wil nog zoveel fijne dingen met haar ondernemen, nog zoveel vragen....maar voor hoe lang kan dit nog?"
Since last week I felt so nervous and afraid..and now it feels good that I have scrapt about it, that I put my feelings on this page!
Now we have to wait till Wednesday for the result....Then I'll light a candle beside the little angel. Everytime my mom had to go to the hospital for chemo's or for tests and I'm at home...then I light a candle for her.....and everytime I hope that it will help....well after two years having this terrible disease, my dear mom is still with us!!!
Last weekend Richard and I went away with our camper and canoes to the Weerribben (that's is a national park with alot of canals in the north of the Netherlands) Saturday we have canoet (???) the all afternoon....it was wonderful and so peacefull/calm....only nature around you, water-birds, flowers, sun and the sound of the wind!!! Yes this was really a good idea of Richard (because first I didn't want to go away from home)!!!
A while ago I have received this award from Viv (thank you :).... and when you receive this award you have to tell 7 things about yourself.............so here are 7 things about me.....
1. i cry when i hear beautiful music
2. i'm only 155cm long (small;);)
3. i'm a vegetarian
4. i'm afraid in the dark
5. i blush when i speak with other people (hate it!)
6. i'm not so sweet as people think (and Richard knows that ;D;D)
7. just one more thing about me...hmmm...i really want to be a mom!!!
Ooohhh...and before I jump into my bed (it's allready to late)....I haven't post that I won Scrapping the Music with 'Footloose' , that I was the random winner and a dt-fave at Sketchy Thursday's!!! So two prizes are coming my way by plane soon:):):) Oohhhhhh....i love, love happy mailllllllllll!!!!!!!
Wish you all a good night (or day;) and thanks for stopping by!!!!